Chapter 8

“Who routed them?” I asked.
Lena didn’t look away this time. Her hands rested on the laptop, fingers curled against the edge as if she were keeping it from sliding off the table.
“I did.”
The words landed harder than Eleanor’s threats ever had. Daniel went still beside me. Somewhere beyond the suite’s half-open door, one of the girls laughed, then shushed the other.
I looked at Lena. “You sent his letters to Eleanor?”
“I changed the internal routing. She told me the mail had to go through her office before it left the company.” Lena swallowed. “I knew it was unusual. I told myself she was protecting confidential correspondence.”
“And when you figured out what she was doing?”
“I should have gone to Daniel. I should have told you, somehow.” Her voice shook, but she didn’t ask me to make it easier for her. “I didn’t. I kept copies of the routing records and the letters I could access. At first, I was afraid of losing my job. Later, I was afraid of what she’d do if I spoke. Neither excuse changes what I did.”
Daniel’s hand had closed around the back of a chair. “You watched her keep them from Rachel.”
“I knew the letters weren’t reaching her. I didn’t know what Eleanor had told either of you.” Lena’s gaze lowered. “That distinction mattered to me at the time. It shouldn’t have.”
The anger that rose in me had nowhere clean to go. Lena had helped close a door I hadn’t even known Daniel was knocking on. But the shame in her face wasn’t a key that could unlock eight years.
“Why keep the copies?” I asked.
“Because eventually I understood this wasn’t about company mail.” She opened the folder on her laptop. “Eleanor was using the records to maintain a story. The letters contradicted it. I kept them because I couldn’t bear to let every trace disappear.”
“Yet you let us believe there might be nothing,” Daniel said.
“I did.” Lena’s eyes shone. “I’m sorry.”
I wanted an apology to be enough. I wanted it to be nothing at all. Instead, I felt the old yellow baby shoes in my mind—two tiny announcements I had never gotten to make, still waiting somewhere in the life I’d left behind.
“Show us,” I said.
Lena turned the laptop toward Daniel and opened a scan. The letter was brief, dated several months after I’d left Chicago. Daniel’s handwriting leaned forward across the page, familiar in a way that made my chest tighten.
He asked Eleanor to tell me he still wanted to talk. He said the report was false. He asked her to make sure I knew he would listen.
Daniel read it once. Then again.
I’d had no chance to answer. No chance to say I was frightened, or that I was carrying his children, or that I’d believed the voice Eleanor had used against me. The choice had been taken before I knew it was mine to make.
He scrolled through the next scan. One letter asked if Eleanor had heard from me. Another asked her to pass along that he was sorry for how things had ended. There were gaps between them—weeks, then months. Each page left a small, brutal mark.
“She told me you wanted no contact,” he said, looking at the screen. “I thought I was respecting what you wanted.”
“I believed you’d chosen the company.”
His eyes lifted. “We were both living inside what she told us.”
“Not the same way,” I said.
“No.” He took that without defending himself. “Not the same way.”
Lena’s laptop chimed.
She glanced down. The color drained from her face.
“What is it?” Daniel asked.
“My access just got revoked.” Lena tried to reopen the archive. A red notice appeared where the records had been. “Executive lockout. Eleanor’s office.”
A second alert flashed. Lena read it silently, then pressed her lips together.
“What?” I asked.
“She’s claiming I created the false routing records and forged the dossier.” Lena’s voice had gone thin. “There’s a notice that I’m being reported as the source of the leak.”
Daniel straightened. “She’s making you the culprit.”
“She’s making me convenient,” Lena said.
For a moment, no one spoke. The girls’ laughter had faded. I could hear the soft scrape of shoes in the next room, then Mia’s voice asking Betty where the roses should go.
Lena reached into her bag and pulled out a thick envelope. “I made copies before I came here. Letters, delivery slips, the notes I kept. Not everything, but enough to show I didn’t invent the routing.”
“You kept them outside the company?” Daniel asked.
“I kept them where Eleanor couldn’t erase them with a password.”
She set the envelope between us. I didn’t touch it right away. The pages inside were proof, but they were also years of my life folded and stored by someone who had helped hide them.
“Are you willing to say what you did?” I asked.
Lena met my eyes. “Yes. Even if it costs me my job. I should have done it years ago.”
Daniel opened the envelope carefully. He placed each letter on the table, one beside the next. I sat across from him, close enough to see the faint pressure marks where his pen had bitten into the paper.
His hand hovered over the final envelope.
“This one was sent later,” Lena said. “It was returned to Eleanor’s office.”
Daniel looked at me, not asking permission, only waiting.
I nodded.
He opened it and drew out the letter. The first lines were plain: Daniel wanted to meet me. He asked for one chance to hear what had happened from me, not through anyone else.
May you like
Then I saw the writing across the bottom. Eleanor’s ink, hard and dark against his careful words.
Never deliver.