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Chapter 9: The First Handoff

Corinne sent the place and time at 8:12 the next morning. A small meeting room at a neighborhood community center. Ten o’clock.

I arrived at ten.

Mrs. Pearl stood beside the door, her hands folded in front of her. Corinne sat at a table with Owen in his carrier and a diaper bag on the chair beside her. She looked tired, though I knew better than to mistake that for an invitation to ask how she was.

I had brought only the supplies she’d requested. No flowers. No gift tucked among the diapers. Nothing that could pretend to be an apology.

“Good morning,” I said.

“Good morning,” Corinne replied.

Mrs. Pearl gave me a brief nod. Her presence made the room feel less like a visit than an agreement being carefully observed.

Corinne checked her phone.

“Twenty minutes. We leave at ten-twenty.”

“All right.”

She lifted Owen from the carrier and showed me the bottle and the notes in the bag. His formula was the same one she’d told me about over our calls. The pediatrician’s instructions were written down, too.

“If anything seems off, don’t guess,” she said. “Call me. Or the pediatrician, depending on what’s happening.”

“I understand.”

“He ate before we left, so he may not need the bottle. Watch for his cues.”

I nodded, trying to take in every word without turning the moment into an examination I had to pass.

Then Corinne eased Owen into my arms.

For a few seconds, he was quiet. I had imagined holding him so many times that the real weight of him startled me. He was warm and impossibly small, his cheek tucked against my shirt. I held one hand behind his head, as she’d shown me in the photographs and during our brief calls.

His face tightened. A soft cry rose into a wail.

My whole body tensed.

“Try keeping him closer to your shoulder,” Corinne said. “And support his head. He’s not settled yet.”

I shifted him carefully. The correction landed, and for an instant I felt the old reflex: explain that I was trying, that I had only been holding him for a moment.

I swallowed it.

“Okay,” I said. “Show me?”

Corinne demonstrated with her hands, not taking him from me. I adjusted my hold. Owen’s cries continued, but I kept my voice low and my movements slow.

“I’m here,” I murmured. “I know. It’s all right.”

I didn’t know if those words meant anything to him. I said them anyway, without expecting Corinne to praise me for trying.

Mrs. Pearl watched from beside the door. Corinne kept her hands folded on the table.

After a while, Owen’s cries softened to hiccups. I rocked him gently, following Corinne’s instructions rather than trusting some instinct I had no right to claim.

The room settled into a quiet broken only by his breathing.

“I knew you missed the birth,” Corinne said.

My eyes stayed on Owen’s face. His tiny fist had curled against my shirt.

“I should have told you,” I said.

“You should have answered your phone.”

“Yes.”

“I knew you weren’t in Atlanta. I knew you were with Tessa. I knew before you came home.”

There was no anger in her voice now. That made it harder to hide from what she was saying.

I looked up. She wasn’t watching me. She was watching our son.

“I’m sorry,” I said. “I was in Miami. You were in labor, and I ignored you. Then I lied about where I’d been. I made you carry the truth by yourself while I acted as if you didn’t know.”

Corinne’s jaw tightened.

“I didn’t tell you because I wanted you to feel ashamed,” she said. “I didn’t tell you so you’d come home with roses and a story about how you’d change.”

“I know.”

“You don’t get to make this moment into a request for comfort.”

“I won’t.”

For a few seconds, neither of us spoke. I could hear the air conditioner and the faint sounds of people moving in the hallway. There were questions I wanted to ask—how long she’d known, how she’d found out, what she wanted now. I kept them to myself. She had offered twenty minutes with Owen, not an opening to investigate her life or bargain for mine.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there when he was born,” I said. “I’m sorry I made you face that night without me. And I’m sorry I betrayed your trust before you ever had to ask.”

Corinne looked at me then.

“I heard you.”

It wasn’t forgiveness. I didn’t treat it like it was.

Owen shifted against my shoulder, making a small, uneasy sound. I adjusted my arm to support his head. He settled again.

“He’s been eating normally,” Corinne said. “And sleeping in short stretches.”

“I’ll remember.”

“Remembering isn’t the hard part.”

She didn’t need to say more. The schedule, the calls, the supplies—all of it was easy to do for a few days. I had spent years keeping promises when they suited me. My word did not become reliable just because I wanted it to.

At ten-twenty, Corinne stood.

“That’s our time.”

My arms tightened around Owen before I could stop them. I loosened them just as quickly.

“Of course.”

I handed him back gently, watching Corinne settle him into the carrier. I didn’t ask for one more minute. I didn’t ask when I could see him again. I didn’t ask whether she believed my apology.

Mrs. Pearl picked up the diaper bag.

“Thank you for the supplies,” Corinne said.

“You’re welcome.”

She lifted the carrier. Mrs. Pearl opened the door, and I stepped aside to let them pass.

“Goodbye,” Corinne said.

“Goodbye.”

I stayed in the room after they left. The twenty minutes had ended exactly when she said they would. Nothing had been repaired. But I hadn’t tried to stretch the agreement, and Owen had been held safely in my arms. For that morning, those were the facts I had earned.

At 6:30 that evening, I called Corinne as scheduled.

“Owen ate well,” she said. “He’s been fussy this afternoon, but he settled.”

“Thank you for telling me.”

There was a pause.

“Was the visit all right for him?”

“He was fine,” she said. “I’ll let you know if anything changes.”

“Okay. Good night.”

“Good night.”

I put the phone down and returned to the Cedar Court file. I had asked the company’s counsel to send Ana any new language from Hearthline before anyone treated it as a workable solution. The board had authorized one counteroffer, but only with a viable funding plan and protections residents could actually live with. Nothing had been accepted. Nothing had been settled.

A message from Ana appeared on my screen.

I read the attached draft once, then opened it again, searching for the promise residents had asked us to make.

May you like

Ana’s next message came through.

“Grant, Hearthline’s draft still lets the buyer make residents leave.”

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