Chapter 4: The Cost of Being Easy

Camille kept her eyes on the photograph, though the screen had gone dark.
“I can’t tell you what it is,” she said. “I can tell you the signature bothers me.”
“That’s enough for tonight.”
It wasn’t. But I was tired of asking people to make a certainty out of something they couldn’t know. I glanced toward the house. The curtains were still drawn, every window reflecting the porch light back at me.
“I need to go in and find my records.”
Camille studied my face. “You want me to come?”
“Yes. But I’m the one who’s going to look.”
Inside, the house smelled of takeout Jason hadn’t managed to order—garlic and cold sauce, abandoned in the kitchen. He wasn’t in the room. A door shut somewhere upstairs, followed by the muffled thud of a drawer. Camille stayed close behind me without reaching for my arm.
I pulled open the desk drawer. The ledger was where I’d left it, tucked under a stack of envelopes. Its cloth cover had softened at the corners from years of handling. I used to think of it as a place to keep track of things before I forgot: an odd utility charge, a delivery that never came, the month we replaced the dishwasher.
Now it looked like a record of how often I had made sure everyone else had what they needed.
Camille sat across from me at the dining table. I opened to the last month and ran my finger down the page. The entries were brief, cramped into the spaces between errands and reminders: groceries, gas, the housekeeper, takeout when Jason worked late. Beside two restaurant meals, I’d written, Jason’s promotion dinner and Mom’s birthday.
The ledger didn’t make a speech. It didn’t have to.
“He told me to handle my own expenses,” I said.
Camille looked at the open page. “But these aren’t just yours.”
“No. They’re what I did because we lived here together.”
The word together pressed against my teeth. I turned a page. There was Diane’s extra card, marked beside the month I’d added it to my account after she said she needed help keeping track of errands. At first, the charges had been small. Then came the salon, a department store, a string of purchases I’d never seen.
I’d noticed. I’d told myself it was temporary.
The phone buzzed against the table.
Jason: Put Mom’s card back on your account. She has errands tomorrow.
I read the message twice, as if a different meaning might emerge if I gave it time.
Camille’s gaze lifted to mine. “What do you want to do?”
I set the phone beside the ledger. “Leave it canceled.”
The answer sounded too small for the heat rising in my chest. Still, it was mine.
I turned back to the desk. My folders were arranged in labeled stacks, but the one marked HOUSE was missing. Jason had taken that folder; I’d known it since I found the empty space where it belonged. I searched the other files for a copy of the purchase papers, moving past appliance warranties and insurance notices, the ordinary paper skin of a home.
Camille didn’t touch a thing. She watched the hall while I checked the lower drawer.
“Anything?” she asked.
“Not what I’m looking for.”
I found an old envelope with the mortgage company’s name printed across it, but it held nothing useful. I laid it on the desk and tried to ignore the way my hands had started to shake. The papers could wait. The fact that they were gone could not.
My phone buzzed again.
Jason: You heard me. Don’t make this a bigger problem than it is.
I stared at the words. He’d made it bigger when he took a folder and showed me a signature I didn’t remember writing. He’d made it bigger when he told me my questions were a threat to him.
I typed: It’s canceled.
Then I set the phone facedown.
A knock sounded at the front door. Camille glanced toward the entry, but I was already standing. I had no idea who it might be. The second knock came harder.
Diane stood on the porch with her purse hooked over her arm. Her eyes flicked past me to Camille, then landed on the ledger in my hand.
“So this is what you’re doing now?” she said. “Keeping a list of everything you’ve ever done for Jason?”
I felt my grip tighten on the book. “I’m looking for my records.”
“Jason hasn’t eaten all day.”
“He’s an adult.”
Diane let out a brittle laugh. “You’re really going to starve him to make a point?”
The accusation struck in a tender place because I remembered every meal I’d made when I was tired, every grocery order placed between work and sleep. I had spent years mistaking care for an obligation no one needed to name. I wasn’t going to let her turn that into proof that I owed them more.
“He can buy dinner,” I said. “You have his paycheck now, don’t you?”
Her expression tightened. For an instant, the woman who had smiled while Jason told me to fend for myself disappeared, and someone worried looked out through her face. Then she stepped closer to the threshold.
“You know there’s an appointment coming up,” she said. “You can’t keep acting like this won’t affect anybody else.”
Camille went very still behind me.
I kept my voice level. “What appointment?”
Diane’s eyes darted toward the staircase. She’d said it too quickly, before she could decide whether I was meant to hear.
“It’s family business.”
“What does it have to do with this house?”
Her mouth opened, then closed. She smoothed a hand over her purse, restoring her practiced calm.
“You always have to make everything sound ugly.”
“That doesn’t answer my question.”
“Ask Jason.” She turned away before I could stop her. Her heels clicked down the porch steps, sharp and fast.
I shut the door. My heart hammered—not because Diane had threatened me, but because she’d slipped. Appointment. House. She knew something, and she’d assumed I did too.
Camille looked at the ledger in my hand. “Write down exactly what she said.”
I opened to a blank margin and wrote the words while they were still clear in my mind. Then I took a photo of the page. I didn’t know what I would need later. I only knew I was done relying on memory when someone else kept moving the facts around.
I opened Jason’s message and began to type.
What appointment did your mother mean? Why does it involve paperwork about our house?
I stopped before sending. Then I added: Tell me what you’re planning.
May you like
The reply came before I could put the phone down.
The appointment is none of your business.