Chapter 11 - Counting Again
The urgent care waiting room smelled like rubbing alcohol and old coffee. I sat with my hands locked around the empty inhaler, and Elena sat two chairs down like we hadn't come in together. That was her idea. She'd changed out of her uniform into jeans and a gray sweatshirt, hair pulled back, and she kept checking her phone.
My chest felt tight just being there. Not an attack, just the memory of one. The fluorescent lights buzzed. A kid coughed in the corner. Every time the door opened I expected to see someone from the tower.
"Julian Hale?" A nurse called it like a question.
Elena stood at the same time I did. She caught herself and sat back down, then nodded at me to go. I wanted her with me. The whole point was she had the proof.
The exam room was small, paper crackling under me on the table. Dr. Patel was maybe fifty, short gray hair, no wasted movement. She read the intake form and looked up.
"You report adult-onset asthma, daily controller, rescue inhaler as needed. Last severe episode this week at work. Is that right?"
"Yes," I said. "Two episodes in the office. The second one yesterday was mild. I used —" I stopped. "I used a borrowed inhaler."
She didn't blink. "Show me what you have."
I set both inhalers on the tray. The empty one from my desk drawer, and the spare Elena had pulled from her apron pocket that morning. Elena's brother's, she'd told me on day two. She'd refilled it since, she said, but she'd kept hers separate after that.
Dr. Patel picked up mine first. Turned it over, checked the label, then popped the canister out of the plastic actuator. She held it up.
"Where's the dose counter on this one?"
"It doesn't have one on the canister," I said. "It's on the actuator. It read zero that morning."
She nodded and set it on a small digital scale on the counter. She tapped buttons, wrote a number down, then weighed Elena's canister the same way.
"Full canister weight for this brand is twenty-three grams, plus or minus. Empty is around thirteen." She showed me the display. Mine read 13.2. "Yours is effectively empty. No residual propellant to speak of."
"I know it was full last month," I said. "I barely use it. Maybe twice since spring."
She looked at me over her glasses. "How many puffs is this rated for?"
"Two hundred."
She did the math out loud, not unkindly. "If you'd used it twice, you'd be down four puffs. You'd still be at essentially full weight." She picked up my actuator and sniffed the mouthpiece, then pressed the canister down into a tissue. Nothing came out but a faint hiss. "No plume. No medication."
My hands were damp. "Could the counter be wrong?"
"No. But counters only count when the canister is seated and fired through that actuator." She set it down. "Someone fired this inhaler dozens and dozens of times outside normal use. You don't lose a hundred and ninety-six doses by accident. To waste that much, you have to sit there and pump it, over and over."
I heard Elena's voice in my head from that morning. This number doesn't look right. Don't let them see that.
Someone had come into my office and emptied it.
There was a knock, and Elena slipped in. She'd told the front desk she was family. Dr. Patel raised an eyebrow at me, and I nodded.
"This is Elena Ruiz," I said. "She was there. She saved me."
Elena didn't sit. She stood by the door holding her phone with both hands. "I have a picture," she said quietly. "From that morning. Of his counter before — before anything was touched after."
Dr. Patel held out her hand. Elena pulled up the photo and handed the phone over.
I'd seen it once in the parking lot, but not like this. Close-up, harsh flash on white plastic: the little window on my actuator reading 000, and behind it the edge of my dark reflective floor and Elena's blue sleeve. Timestamped 8:42 that morning.
"Good thinking," Dr. Patel said. She turned the phone so I could see. "Can you send this to our records address? We'll attach it to today's note with the weights. That gives you a time-stamped counter reading plus a physical weight a week later showing no recovery. That's evidence."
Elena glanced at me. "Send it now?"
"Please," I said.
She typed with her thumbs. My phone buzzed a second later — she'd cc'd me too. The photo landed in my inbox like something heavy.
Dr. Patel was already writing. "I'm ordering you a new rescue inhaler today, same molecule but with an integrated dose counter you can't separate from the canister. And I'm switching your controller dose up for two weeks after two scares that close together."
She printed two pages and signed them with a quick scratch.
"This second page is a work accommodation letter. It states you have diagnosed asthma, require rescue medication on your person at all times, and require that your office remain accessible and free from tampering with medical devices. I am not listing your triggers in detail, but I am stating that deliberate interference with medication is a safety risk."
I stared at the letter. Once HR had that, there was no more hiding. No more passing it off as a chest cold before the vote.
"If I file this," I said, "the board will know."
"If you don't file it," she said, "you could die at your desk. You had two episodes. You needed someone else's inhaler to breathe. Next time she might not be there."
Elena looked at the floor. Her voice was low. "He tried to hide it to keep his job."
"I know," Dr. Patel said. "I see a version of this every month. Construction guys, teachers, cops. The job feels bigger than the lungs until the lungs win."
She handed me the prescriptions and the letter in an envelope. Then she bagged my empty canister and actuator in a clear specimen bag, labeled it with my name and date, and handed it to me.
"Keep the photo, keep this, keep the scale printout. Don't throw the empty away. If someone wasted those puffs on purpose, this is how you prove it."
Outside, the parking lot was gray and cold. Elena walked beside me to my car, finally close. I held the envelope and the bagged inhaler like they weighed fifty pounds.
"Thank you for coming in," I said. "For the picture."
She pulled her sweatshirt sleeves down over her hands. "I took it because that number scared me. Zero didn't make sense. You told me you never used it."
"It didn't make sense because someone emptied it," I said. "Carter, or someone he paid. Before the vote."
She breathed out slow. "What are you going to do with the letter?"
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I looked at the urgent care doors, then at her. My chest rose without catching for the first time in days.
"I'm going to use it," I said. "But not yet. Not until I get him in that office."
