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Chapter 3: The Story He Wanted

For a moment, nobody moved.

Dr. Keller stood with the closed file against his chest. Grant still blocked the door, his threat hanging between us like a hand at my throat. Then Noah shifted in Jocelyn’s arms and made a small, sleepy sound.

Grant glanced at him. Whatever he saw in the child’s face seemed to pull him back from the edge—not soften him, exactly, but remind him there were witnesses.

“Come on,” he said to Jocelyn.

She didn’t move.

“Now.”

Jocelyn gathered Noah closer. His little hand curled in the fabric of her blouse.

Grant looked from her to Keller. “You’re really going to let them do this? The two of them standing here together, pretending this is about records?”

“I haven’t pretended anything,” I said.

His smile was thin and humorless. “You always did know how to make yourself sound wounded.”

“Grant,” Keller said, “step away from the door.”

Grant’s eyes stayed on mine. “You and Keller have been waiting a year for a chance to rewrite our marriage.”

Keller didn’t raise his voice. “The door, Mr. Bellamy.”

A muscle jumped in Grant’s jaw. He moved aside, but only far enough to make the passage feel like something he was granting us. Jocelyn slipped through first, Noah’s face tucked against her shoulder. Grant followed, turning back once.

“Enjoy your victory,” he said.

Then he was gone.

The quiet he left behind wasn’t peace. It was the uneasy hush after a glass breaks, when everyone is still waiting to hear what fell next.

I looked at Dr. Keller. “What can you actually confirm to me?”

He set the file on the table but kept one hand on its cover. “I can explain information that concerns you and what has already been shared with your permission or Mr. Bellamy’s. I can’t give you his records, or a copy of anything that belongs to him.”

“I don’t want a copy.”

His gaze searched my face.

“I’m not taking anything,” I said. “I’m not leaking anything. I don’t want to use a private report to hurt him.”

“He’s already threatened you.”

“That doesn’t give me a right to his file.”

The words came out steadier than I felt. A year ago, I might have taken any scrap of proof offered and clutched it like a life raft. Now I understood that wanting the truth didn’t mean I had to become careless with someone else’s privacy.

Keller nodded, though his expression remained troubled. “If you want to review your own records, we can arrange that through the clinic. Anything involving an audit or the recovered archive will need to be handled carefully.”

“Then handle it carefully.”

Outside the closed door, footsteps passed and faded. I pictured Grant marching down the hall with Jocelyn beside him, his anger filling every space he could reach. I pictured her keeping her eyes lowered, as she had when he first told me she’d given him the family I never could.

“Did he order the new test?” I asked.

Keller didn’t answer immediately. “That’s something you should ask him.”

“I did. He didn’t answer.”

“I know.”

I sat back down, mostly because my knees had begun to tremble. The chair was the same one Grant had knocked against the wall. I could still see the faint mark where its leg had struck.

Keller slid a paper cup of water toward me. I didn’t drink.

“He’s going to make this about me,” I said.

“He may try.”

The plainness of it hurt more than reassurance would have.

“I’m sorry you’re in the middle of this,” he said.

“So am I.”

He glanced at the door. “Would you like me to have someone walk you out?”

“No. I can find my own way.”

I stood and put my coat over my arm. My hand had gone cold around the sleeve.

At the threshold, I stopped. “If he asks for his records, give them to him.”

“Of course.”

“And don’t give him anything of mine unless I authorize it.”

“I won’t.”

That answer was enough. I left the room without looking back at the file.

The hall outside smelled of disinfectant and burnt coffee. Near the elevators, a nurse pushed a cart of folded blankets, and a family waited beneath a framed photograph of Ohio in autumn. Ordinary life kept moving around me, indifferent to the fact that my former husband had just threatened me in a consultation room.

Grant and Jocelyn were nowhere in sight.

I found a seat near the windows and called a rideshare. I watched the little car icon crawl toward the hospital, trying not to build a story out of every minute Jocelyn had spent silent.

She had known I was hurting. She had known what I believed about myself. That was all I could say for certain.

My phone buzzed before the car arrived.

Jocelyn: Please don’t leave yet. I need to tell you something.

I stared at the message until the screen dimmed. My first instinct was to delete it. My second was to ask whether Grant had taken Noah somewhere safe. Neither instinct felt like trust.

I typed, Are you alone?

Her reply came quickly.

Jocelyn: Yes. Noah is with Grant in the car. I came back inside.

I asked the driver to wait. Then I went back toward the consultation rooms.

Jocelyn stood by the vending machines, arms folded tightly over her chest. Without Noah against her, she looked smaller. There were damp strands of hair at her temple, and her eyes moved past me to the corridor behind me, checking for someone.

“You came back,” I said.

“I couldn’t say it in front of him.”

“Then say it now.”

She swallowed. “Grant ordered the test.”

A bright, hard anger opened inside me. “When?”

“After he started asking questions about Noah’s conception date.”

The words landed without answering anything they seemed to promise. I didn’t ask for more. Not yet.

“He said he needed to know,” she continued. “He said the dates didn’t make sense. He kept asking me to go over them again.”

“And you agreed?”

“I didn’t know what else to do.”

“You could have told me you were afraid.”

Her eyes filled, but she didn’t reach for me. “I know.”

“No, you don’t.” I kept my voice low. “You don’t get to decide what I know, or what I can bear, and then call it protection.”

Jocelyn lowered her gaze. For an instant, the years between us pressed close: her at my kitchen table, her hand wrapped around mine, her voice telling me not to blame myself. The memory still had warmth in it. That was the worst part.

“I’m not asking you to forgive me,” she said. “I’m asking you to hear what happened before he turns it into something else.”

“Why should I believe you?”

“You shouldn’t have to believe me yet.” She drew a shaky breath. “Just hear the facts. Then decide.”

I looked at her, at the woman who had once known how I took my coffee and had later stood beside Grant while he made my deepest grief sound like a defect.

“I’ll hear the facts,” I said. “That’s all.”

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Her face crumpled with relief, though I had offered her no comfort.

“Grant already has a story prepared to make you look unstable,” Jocelyn said.

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