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Chapter 5: A Place to Sleep

My mother’s words stayed in the hospital room after she said them.

Dean had started asking where the hidden phone went.

Officer Ruiz didn’t treat that as proof that Dean had found anything. He asked my mother when Dean had asked, what he had said, and whether she had answered. She told him Dean had brought it up at home before the ambulance came. She didn’t know where the phone was. She hadn’t seen him take it.

I believed that she didn’t know. I didn’t know whether I believed everything else.

Ruiz wrote down her answers. Officer Bell remained near the curtain, keeping an eye on the hallway. Nobody told me the phone would be found, or that the recordings would settle anything. They were going to preserve the files I’d shown them and document how I’d accessed them. The phone itself was still missing.

Ms. Cole waited until the questions were done.

“You don’t have to decide everything tonight,” she said. “But we should make a plan for where you’ll be safe when you leave here.”

The word leave made my stomach tighten. I looked at the hospital blanket over my knees. Leaving the hospital meant leaving the one place where Dean couldn’t simply walk into my room and tell me what happened.

“Where can I go?” I asked.

Ms. Cole didn’t offer a miracle. She asked what I could safely manage, what I needed nearby, and whether there was anyone I trusted to know where I was. I didn’t have an answer to that last question.

She explained that she could call a local program to ask about temporary accommodation. It would be separate from the home I shared with Dean and my mother. I could hear the uncertainty in her voice when she said availability depended on what the program could arrange. Still, it was an option. A real one, even if it was only for a little while.

“I don’t want to go back there,” I said.

“All right,” she replied. “We’ll work on somewhere else.”

The decision was smaller than I had expected. It didn’t require me to know what I would do next month, or whether I would ever speak to my mother again. It only required me to say where I would not sleep tonight.

Ms. Cole made calls from the hospital corridor. When she came back, she told me there was a temporary room available through a community program. She didn’t describe it as perfect or permanent. She explained who would meet us, what information they needed, and how we could get there without stopping at the house first.

I said yes.

My mother asked whether she could come with me.

I looked at Ms. Cole before I answered.

“Not tonight,” I said.

My mother’s hands folded in her lap. For a moment, I thought she might argue. Then she nodded.

“I’ll stay here,” she said.

It wasn’t the same as being safe. It was the same as agreeing to the boundary.

Before I left, Ruiz asked whether I wanted an escort to collect essential things from home. He explained that I didn’t have to go inside if I didn’t want to. I could leave everything there. The police couldn’t guarantee that going back would be easy just because they came with me.

I thought of my backpack, my school laptop, the folder where I kept assignments, and the clothes I wore most. I thought of the bookshelf and the broken speaker. I didn’t know whether the phone was inside it, beneath it, or gone for good.

“I need my school things,” I said.

“Then we can plan for that,” Ruiz replied. “You can decide what you’re comfortable collecting. If anything feels wrong, we leave.”

I wanted to take everything. I wanted to erase every trace of myself from that house before Dean could touch another thing. But a police escort couldn’t make the home feel harmless, and I wasn’t willing to trade one danger for the chance to retrieve a pile of belongings.

We went with the essentials: a change of clothes, medication, identification, and my school bag. My mother stayed at the hospital. Ruiz and Bell came with me, and Ms. Cole rode with me to the address arranged for that night.

The house looked ordinary when we arrived. Porch light on. Curtains drawn. Nothing in the windows to show what had happened inside them.

I stayed near the car while the officers went in first. They told me I could wait there. I didn’t have to prove anything by crossing the threshold.

From the driveway, I could see my bedroom window. The bookshelf was in shadow.

For a few seconds, I couldn’t make my legs move.

“Your call,” Ms. Cole said quietly.

I pictured the notebooks I’d left on the desk and the clothes I wouldn’t bring. Then I pictured Dean coming through the hospital curtain, still sure that he could decide what I said and where I went.

“I’ll get the bag,” I said. “Nothing else.”

I went inside with Ruiz and Bell. I kept my eyes on the floor as we passed the living room. My stepfather’s chair sat empty. The empty space seemed to take up more room than the furniture.

In my bedroom, the broken speaker was still on the bookshelf. The officers had already checked it once. Nobody reached for it now. I picked up my backpack and looked inside to make sure the folders were there. A math packet, a history notebook, two pens with chewed caps. Ordinary things, suddenly important because they belonged to me.

The phone wasn’t in the bag. It wasn’t in the speaker. We didn’t search every corner or turn the room upside down. There was no point pretending we knew where it had gone.

I left the rest.

The drive to the temporary room was quiet. I watched streetlights pass over the window and tried not to turn each one into a question. Would I finish my assignments? Would I sleep? Would Dean show up? Ms. Cole didn’t tell me not to be afraid. She reminded me that if I needed help, I could ask the staff where I was staying or contact the officers.

The room was plain and clean. It had a bed, a small desk, a lamp, and a door that locked. Someone from the program showed me where the shared kitchen was and explained the basic rules. No one asked me to tell my story again. That mattered more than I could explain.

After the staff member left, I put my backpack beside the desk. The room wasn’t home. It also wasn’t Dean’s house.

For that night, the difference was enough.

Ms. Cole helped me find the school’s number and asked whether I wanted her to call or whether I’d rather do it myself.

“I’ll call,” I said.

My fingers shook as I dialed. I asked the front office to connect me with Ms. Alvarez, the counselor who had once helped me make up a missed assignment. I hadn’t told her what was happening at home. I’d told myself there was no point asking for help if I couldn’t explain everything.

She answered after a few rings.

“Mara? Are you okay?”

The question nearly undid me. I took a breath.

“I’m safe tonight,” I said. “I’m at the hospital’s suggestion, and I might need help keeping up with school. I still want to graduate.”

There was a pause—not disbelief, but care.

“We can talk privately,” she said. “You don’t have to explain everything on the phone. We’ll figure out what you need for your classes and what can wait.”

“I don’t want everyone knowing.”

“I understand. We’ll talk about who needs to know and why. You get a say.”

I pressed my free hand against the desk. Graduation had been three months away when the night began. It still was. The calendar hadn’t changed just because my life had.

“Can I come in tomorrow?” I asked.

“Yes. We’ll make a plan when you get here.”

After I hung up, Ms. Cole told me she’d let Ruiz know I had arrived. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at my school bag. I was still scared. I could be scared and still make a call. I could leave a house without leaving my future behind.

A little later, my phone buzzed with a message from my mother. She had stayed at the hospital as instructed. I had not asked her to check on Dean, and I didn’t want her to put herself between him and the officers. Her message was short.

“He just texted me.”

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A second message appeared.

“He wants you to come home alone.”

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