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Chapter 4: Vanessa’s Version

By morning, I had read the unknown-number message so many times that the words seemed to have worn a groove in my phone.

Nathan has already told people you knew about Eli.

I didn’t know who’d sent it. I didn’t know whether it was a warning or another move in a story everyone else seemed to understand before I did. But Vanessa’s number card was still in my clutch, so I called her.

She chose a diner near the highway, crowded enough that no one could corner either of us without an audience. Claire drove me there and took a booth across the room, close enough to see me but far enough to let me speak for myself.

Vanessa was already seated near the window. Eli slept in his carrier beside her, bundled in the same white blanket I remembered from the ballroom. In daylight, with the diner’s clatter and the smell of coffee between us, she looked less like the woman who had stopped my wedding and more like someone who hadn’t slept in days.

She watched me approach.

“You came.”

“I said I would.”

“I know.” She glanced at the empty seat across from her. “I wasn’t sure you’d still want to.”

I sat down but kept my coat on. “I don’t know what I want yet.”

“That’s fair.”

A server appeared with a pot of coffee. I ordered tea. Vanessa asked for water, then waited until the server moved away before unzipping her bag.

“I brought things you can check yourself,” she said. “You don’t have to take my word for anything.”

She set a stack of folded papers on the table. The top one was a prenatal appointment reminder, softened at the edges from being handled. Beneath it were more reminders, a printed visit summary, and her phone.

I looked at the dates without letting myself linger on anything I already knew. “You kept all of this?”

“I needed to remember when to go in. And I needed proof I wasn’t making it up when he stopped answering.”

She turned her phone toward me. A message thread filled the screen. Her first message was short: an appointment reminder, followed by a question about whether Nathan would come with her.

His reply arrived hours later.

Let’s talk after the appointment. We’ll figure it out.

The next few messages followed the same path. Vanessa asked him to acknowledge the pregnancy. Nathan promised to call, to meet, to talk when things were quieter. Each time, the conversation ended with another request for time.

My thumb hovered above the glass.

“How many times did you contact him?”

“Enough that I started to hate seeing his name.”

“That isn’t a number.”

“No. It isn’t.”

She didn’t sound defensive. That irritated me more than it should have. I wanted her to be slippery, to demand that I forgive her for the wedding, to give me something simple to push against.

Instead, she slid the phone closer.

“Read what you want.”

I scrolled. Vanessa’s messages asked him to come to an appointment, to answer her questions, to tell his family. Nathan’s replies turned every direct request into a future conversation.

Then I saw the phrase.

Let’s not make this bigger than it needs to be. We’ll handle it privately.

My stomach tightened. Nathan had used those exact words when I asked why he’d been quiet after dinner with his mother. He’d used them when I wanted to talk through a fight before bed. Not always about the same things. Always when he wanted the conversation to stop.

I set the phone down.

“He said this to you.”

“He said versions of it.”

“He told me we’d handle things privately.”

Vanessa’s gaze lifted to mine. “Did he say that before or after he told you I’d shown up to force a scene?”

I looked toward Claire. She had her hands around a mug but wasn’t drinking. For a second I wanted her to answer for me, to tell me what kind of woman I was supposed to be in this story. But the truth was right there on the table, and none of us could make it simpler by naming it.

“After,” I said.

Vanessa’s fingers closed around the rim of her water glass. “I’m sorry.”

“I know you said that already.”

“I know.”

I looked back at the messages. “Why didn’t you contact me?”

“I thought he was going to tell you. He kept saying he would. Then he said it would hurt you more if I contacted you directly.”

“And you believed him?”

“I believed that maybe there was a right way to do this.” She glanced down at Eli. “I was pregnant, scared, and trying not to make things worse for my son before he was even born.”

I hated that I understood the sentence. It didn’t make her choices mine to approve, or Nathan’s lies easier to hold. But the anger I’d brought into the diner loosened, just enough to let something more complicated through.

“You knew I was marrying him.”

“Yes.”

“You knew he’d kept this from me.”

“Yes.”

“Then you waited until the wedding.”

Her eyes shone, but she didn’t look away. “I thought if I came to you before, he’d tell you I was lying. If I sent a message, he’d make it disappear between the two of you. At the wedding, there were witnesses. I hated doing it that way. I still thought it was the only way he couldn’t make me doubt what I’d said.”

“That doesn’t mean you knew what it would do to me.”

“No,” she said. “It doesn’t.”

Eli stirred. One small fist pushed against the blanket, then slipped back beneath it. Vanessa reached over and tucked the fabric around his shoulder with practiced care.

The white cloth caught my eye. For one disorienting instant, it became the white roses behind Nathan at the altar, the ones arranged so carefully that every stem seemed to know where it belonged.

I looked away first.

“What did he say when you told him you were coming?”

Vanessa’s mouth tightened. “That I was making a mistake.”

“And the private agreement?”

She hesitated, one hand still resting beside Eli’s carrier.

“He said there was a way to keep this from turning into a public mess.”

“What way?”

“He wanted me to sign something. He said we could settle things quietly if I stopped contacting his family.”

A warning bell went off in my mind, but I didn’t know what it meant yet. I didn’t ask to see the document. I didn’t ask what the arrangement offered him. I only watched Vanessa’s face as she said the word quietly, and heard Nathan’s voice behind it.

“What did you tell him?”

“That I wasn’t signing anything until he acknowledged his son without conditions.”

For the first time since I’d entered the diner, I believed she hadn’t come to ask me to take her side. She had come to show me what my husband had said when no one else was watching.

I picked up the phone again. “Can you send me these?”

“Yes.”

“Everything. Not a selection.”

“I can do that.”

“I’m not promising what I’ll do with them.”

“I’m not asking you to.”

She began sending the messages. My phone buzzed against the table, one after another. A strange intimacy settled between us—not trust, not yet, but the shared knowledge of how Nathan could make a promise sound like a door opening while he was quietly keeping it shut.

Then another notification appeared.

Nathan.

I opened it.

Sign the annulment papers tonight, or I’ll tell everyone you abandoned my child.

For a moment, the diner’s noise seemed to pull away—the plates, the coffee machine, the conversations at nearby tables. I read the message again, then turned the screen so Vanessa could see.

May you like

Her face went still.

Across the room, Claire rose from her booth. And on my phone, the threat waited for an answer.

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