Chapter 12 - All the Things I Forgave

I stepped over the threshold because Heather was still tied to that chair.
Edgar shut the door behind me. The latch clicked, small and final, while the cabin’s woodsmoke smell settled in my throat. He held up the blue folder again, as if I had come for it.
“Give me your phone,” he said.
“Let Heather go.”
“You don’t get to make demands.”
Kristina stood between us and the table, her face arranged into the weary sorrow she wore whenever she wanted cruelty to sound like concern. Beyond her, Heather’s wrists were red where the cord bit into them.
Edgar lowered the folder. “Where’s the recording?”
“Safe.”
His eyes sharpened. “Where?”
“Somewhere you can’t reach.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only one you’re getting.”
His hand flexed around the folder. The blue cover bent beneath his fingers. I thought of the day I’d left it on the dining-room table, careless and tired, believing the worst thing Kristina might do with it was lecture me about money.
“Your phone,” Edgar said again. “Now.”
I kept it at my side. “Did you know there was a live rattlesnake in our bed?”
For a moment, the only sound was the old clock ticking above the hearth.
Edgar’s gaze dropped to the floor. “I knew my mother would handle it.”
The words struck with less force than the truth inside them. He hadn’t needed to see the sack or hear the rattle. He had known what his mother was doing, and he had let me climb those stairs toward it.
“You knew she was going to put it there.”
“I knew she was going to take care of the problem.”
“What problem?” My voice came out steadier than I felt. “Me?”
Kristina drew herself up. “Don’t twist his words.”
“I don’t have to. He finally said them plainly.”
Edgar stepped toward me. I didn’t retreat, though every instinct in my body screamed to get distance between us.
“You were supposed to be asleep,” he said. “It would’ve been quick.”
Heather made a broken sound from the chair. Kristina’s face flickered, annoyance replacing sorrow.
“Edgar,” she warned.
He ignored her. “You were going to make this difficult no matter what.”
“No,” I said. “You made it difficult when you chose a woman’s death over telling the truth.”
His jaw tightened. “You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“I know you came home and asked how I knew. I know you watched me try to understand what was happening while you stood there protecting yourself.”
The folder crackled in his grip. For years, I had mistaken his silences for patience, his absences for stress, his evasions for the ordinary wear of a marriage. I had forgiven small cruelties before they had names. I had called it keeping the peace.
Kristina moved closer, her eyes bright and hard. “You think you were the only one who suffered in that marriage?”
I looked at her. “This isn’t about my marriage.”
“It’s always about you.” Her voice rose. “The doctors, the appointments, the endless waiting. Edgar wanted a family. You couldn’t give him one.”
The old reflex stirred—the instinct to apologize for my body, to explain how many rooms I’d sat in beneath fluorescent lights, how many times I’d tried not to cry before I got to the car. My fingers brushed the edge of the appointment card in my purse.
Then I let the reflex pass.
“My grief was mine,” I said. “You don’t get to use it as an excuse for what you did.”
Kristina’s mouth tightened. “You drove him away.”
“No,” I said. “He walked.”
Behind her, Heather struggled against the cord. “Nora—”
Edgar spun toward her. “Quiet.”
Heather flinched. Her eyes glistened, but she kept looking at me.
“I helped him make it look legitimate,” she said. “The policy. The explanation for why he’d benefit. I let him tell me it was normal, that it was only protection, and I helped him make a story that would hold up if anyone asked.”
“Stop talking,” Edgar snapped.
“I told myself you’d die naturally,” Heather continued, her voice shaking. “I let him say you’d wanted him to have something if you were gone. I knew it was wrong. I wanted the money and the life he promised me, and I kept choosing not to ask what he meant.”
The cabin seemed to draw in around us. Heather’s guilt didn’t make her innocent. But the tremor in her voice was real, and so was the bruise-dark red around her wrists.
“Did you know about the snake?” I asked.
“I knew Kristina planned to scare you. I didn’t know she’d put a live one in your bed.” Heather swallowed. “I should’ve stopped it before that. I should’ve told you.”
Edgar strode toward her. “You’ve said enough.”
“You’re the one who told me to bring her here,” Heather said. “You’re the one who said no one would suspect anything.”
He reached for the chair, and Heather twisted away. Its legs scraped over the floorboards.
“Hold still.”
“Don’t touch her,” I said.
He turned, eyes cold. “You’re not in a position to tell me what to do.”
His gaze dropped to my phone. The change in his expression was small but unmistakable: calculation sharpening into urgency.
He lunged.
I jerked my hand back. His fingers caught my wrist, and the phone slipped sideways in my grip. I felt the edge of his nail scrape my skin.
Then Heather threw herself hard against one side of the chair.
The chair tipped. Its wooden leg struck the table, and a lamp toppled, shattering against the floor. Edgar’s grip broke as he flinched toward the crash. My phone stayed in my hand.
Heather hit the floor with the chair, gasping. I moved toward her.
“Don’t!” Kristina shouted.
But I was already beside Heather, reaching for the cord at her wrists. My hands shook as I searched for a knot. She pressed her shoulder against mine, bracing us both.
For one breath, we were on the same side.
Then Kristina stepped between us and the door.
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She planted herself against it, one hand gripping the frame. Her face had gone still, every trace of sorrow stripped away.
“Nobody will believe a wife who can’t even keep her husband,” she said.