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Chapter 4 - The Question Between Rounds

The hallway swallowed us in noise: shoes squeaking against tile, a volunteer calling team numbers, the vending machine coughing out a can somewhere behind us. Caleb and Noah walked shoulder to shoulder, but neither looked toward the auditorium doors.

I stopped beside a bulletin board crowded with schedules and crooked arrows. I didn’t tell them they were brave. I didn’t tell them everything would be all right. They’d heard enough words today that adults meant as promises.

Caleb rubbed the edge of his team badge with his thumb.

“Do we have to talk to Lucas right now?”

“No,” I said. “You can answer him when you’re ready. You can tell him you’re not ready.”

Noah glanced down the hallway, where Lucas stood with the envelope tucked under his arm. He wasn’t coming closer. He was waiting, and the effort of it showed in the way his shoulders stayed stiff.

“Can we be brothers without having to forgive Dad?” Noah asked.

The question landed harder than Daniel’s accusations had. I wanted to give him something clean and comforting, but that would have been another adult deciding what his feelings should look like.

“You can decide what being brothers means to you,” I said. “It doesn’t have to decide anything else.”

Caleb stopped worrying his badge. His eyes stayed on the floor.

“Did you ever think he might come back?”

For a moment, the crowd noise seemed to draw away from us. I thought of birthdays with one empty place in photographs, hospital lights, and the ultrasound I had once held out to Daniel like an invitation. I had hoped, once. I wasn’t going to make that hope another burden for my sons.

“I hoped he would choose to show up,” I said. “But I never wanted you to have to wait for him.”

Caleb nodded without looking at me. Noah stepped closer, just enough for his shoulder to brush mine.

Lucas approached then, slowly enough to make clear he would stop if they asked. He looked from one twin to the other, his fingers tight around the envelope.

“I don’t want to make you talk,” he said. “I just don’t want to keep hearing things from Dad that aren’t true.”

Caleb studied him. They shared a face shape, the same dark brows, but none of that made Lucas familiar. He was a boy caught in a family story he hadn’t been allowed to read.

“We don’t know what to tell you yet,” Caleb said.

“That’s okay.” Lucas swallowed. “I can wait.”

A sharp clank came from the vending machines. Vanessa had stepped beside Daniel, close enough to speak quietly and far enough from the crowd that no one had to pretend this was a conversation for the whole hallway.

“What exactly did you tell me?” she asked.

Daniel’s attention jumped from her to the boys. “Not here.”

“You said Claire’s pregnancy ended.” Vanessa didn’t raise her voice. Somehow that made each word clearer. “Did you know the twins were alive when you told me that?”

He pressed his lips together.

“You know I did,” he said.

“I want the exact truth. Not another version shaped to make me stop asking.”

His gaze flicked toward me. I stayed beside my sons. I wasn’t going to volunteer myself as his excuse or rescue him from a question he had spent years avoiding.

Daniel lowered his voice. “I panicked. Claire and I had already—everything was a mess. I thought she wanted me gone.”

“What did she say that made you think that?”

He didn’t answer.

“Did she tell you not to contact her?” Vanessa asked.

Daniel’s jaw shifted. “No. Not in those words.”

“Did she tell you not to see the babies?”

The pause stretched. A student brushed past with a clipboard, and Vanessa waited until he was gone.

“I believed she wanted nothing from me,” Daniel said. “I thought coming back would make things worse.”

“What did you do to find out?”

He looked away.

Vanessa’s face changed—not softened, exactly, but steadied. I recognized the moment when someone stopped hoping the next sentence would make the last one better.

A volunteer called, “Jefferson Middle, two minutes!”

Caleb turned toward the auditorium. Noah followed, then glanced at Lucas.

“You can sit with us after the round,” he said. “If you want. We’re not promising anything.”

Lucas nodded. “I understand.”

Daniel came toward the boys before they reached the doors.

“Caleb. Noah. Could we talk privately before you go in?”

“No,” Caleb said.

Daniel halted.

“We’re going back to our team,” Noah added. “We’re not doing another conversation right now.”

For a heartbeat, Daniel looked ready to argue. Then he glanced at the students watching from the auditorium entrance and seemed to hear his own words from earlier—about keeping the weekend from becoming a public fight.

Caleb and Noah went inside. Lucas hesitated, then followed them. None of the boys looked back.

Vanessa remained by the vending machines. Daniel turned toward her, his expression tightening as if he expected her to help close the door they had just refused to open.

May you like

She didn’t.

“I’m going to hear Claire’s account directly,” she said. “Whether you like it or not.”

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