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Chapter 5: The Seat Behind the Curtain

Emily was watching to see whether I would give Preston an answer.

I looked at her, then at Preston. His request still hung between us, dressed up as a family conversation but carrying the weight of a business decision. My attorney’s warning glowed on my phone screen. I turned it facedown on my lap.

“I’ve answered you,” I said. “If you have a business concern, send it to my attorney.”

Preston’s eyes narrowed.

“You can’t even give me five minutes?”

“I can. I’m choosing not to discuss business privately at your wedding.”

A few guests nearby had stopped pretending not to listen. Emily looked from Preston to me, her shoulders held stiff beneath the white lace of her dress. Behind her, the quartet kept playing, though the music seemed suddenly too delicate for the room.

My mother shifted closer to my wheelchair.

“Sarah doesn’t owe anyone a business conversation tonight,” she said.

Preston straightened his cuff. The gesture was precise enough to look practiced.

“Fine,” he said. “I’ll speak to your lawyer.”

“That’s the right place to start.”

He held my gaze for another second, then turned toward a knot of guests. I couldn’t tell whether he was angry, embarrassed, or already planning his next approach. I only knew I had not promised him anything.

Emily remained beside my mother.

“I should check on the coordinator,” she said.

It sounded like an exit. Before she could take it, a woman in a black suit stepped out from the edge of the ballroom. She carried a tablet against her chest and wore the concentrated expression of someone keeping a complicated evening from coming apart.

“Emily,” she said, “the photographer needs to know whether we’re keeping the family portraits before dinner.”

“Give me a minute, please.”

The woman glanced at me. Her gaze paused, not on my scars or the chair, but on my face.

“Of course,” she said.

I recognized her from the entrance. She had introduced herself as the event coordinator, though I hadn’t caught her name over the string quartet and the guests arriving all at once.

“Excuse me,” I said. “Could I ask you a factual question about the seating arrangement?”

Her posture changed. Not defensive, exactly—more alert.

“Certainly.”

“What’s your name?”

“Dana. I’m the event coordinator.”

“Dana, who assigned me the seat behind the curtain?”

Emily’s fingers curled around the edge of her bouquet. Preston, several feet away, looked back toward us.

Dana glanced at Emily before answering.

“The seating instructions came from the bride.”

The words were plain. Their effect wasn’t.

For a moment, the ballroom blurred into white roses and shining glass. I heard again Emily’s whisper at the entrance: You’ll ruin the photos. I thought of the tiny round table, the catering boxes stacked beside it, and the velvet curtain between me and the people she had invited to celebrate her marriage.

I kept my hands still on the wheelchair rims.

“Was that location chosen because there was an access issue?” I asked.

“No,” Dana said. “There was an accessible place available in the main seating area.”

Emily looked down.

I kept my voice level. “Where?”

“Near the end of the family table. We had planned the aisle spacing so there was room for your chair, and the route from the entrance was clear.”

“Who confirmed that?”

“Marco, one of our floor staff, walked the route with your mother before guests arrived.” Dana looked toward the service corridor. “He can confirm it.”

My mother’s face tightened.

“I remember,” she said. “He showed me the space.”

“Then the seat behind the curtain wasn’t necessary,” I said.

“No,” Dana replied. “It was not.”

She didn’t embellish or apologize on Emily’s behalf. She simply answered. That was enough to make the truth harder to dodge.

Emily stepped forward, the skirt of her dress whispering over the floor.

“I asked for it,” she said.

No one had accused her of anything. Still, she sounded as if she needed to place the admission somewhere outside herself.

“I wanted a discreet spot,” she continued. “I thought it would be quieter. I didn’t want people staring or asking questions all night.”

The explanation landed between us. She hadn’t said she was sorry. She hadn’t said she should have asked me what I wanted. She had only offered the reason she’d already given before, now in front of the coordinator.

“Did you ask me if I wanted to sit there?” I said.

Emily pressed her lips together.

“No.”

“Did you ask whether the main room was accessible?”

“I knew you’d need space.”

“That’s not what I asked.”

A flush rose along her cheeks.

“I didn’t ask.”

The honesty cost her something. I could see it in the way she drew a breath and then let it out slowly. I was not ready to turn that effort into forgiveness, but I heard it.

“Why not?” my mother asked.

Emily’s gaze jumped to her.

“Mom, I wasn’t trying to hurt Sarah.”

“I didn’t ask whether you were trying to hurt her.”

“I was trying to stop the whole night from becoming about the fire.”

“The whole night became about the fire because I raised a glass,” my mother said. “Sarah still came here to celebrate you.”

Emily’s eyes flicked toward the ballroom. The guests had gone quiet in pockets around us, conversation narrowing into careful murmurs. A couple near the terrace lifted their drinks without drinking. I could imagine what they wanted from the scene: an explanation, a villain, a neat ending they could repeat on the drive home.

“I didn’t want awkward questions,” Emily said.

“Questions about what?” I asked.

She looked at me.

“About your scars. About what happened. People don’t know what to say, and then everyone feels uncomfortable.”

“Did you think I couldn’t handle people being uncomfortable?”

She didn’t answer.

I let the silence stay. It was more honest than the careful sympathy some guests were now offering from a distance. Their expressions didn’t make me feel fragile. Emily’s decision to hide me had.

Dana adjusted the tablet in her hands. “There’s no need for us to interrupt the event. I can confirm the arrangement and make sure the staff has the same information.”

“Please do,” I said. “I’m not asking you to settle anything between us. I want the facts right.”

“Of course.”

Emily’s mouth tightened at the phrase the facts. She looked toward Dana.

“I didn’t ask you to say it like I was doing something wrong.”

Dana kept her voice even.

“You asked for the chair to be placed behind the curtain. I’m describing the instructions we received.”

“Because I didn’t want to create a scene.”

“I understand,” I said. “But the seat you chose did create one. It just happened out of sight.”

Emily stared at me, her eyes bright. I could tell she wanted to say something. Perhaps she wanted me to soften my words for the guests. Perhaps she wanted me to tell her that I knew she hadn’t meant it. I couldn’t know, and I wasn’t going to guess on her behalf.

“You could have told me you were worried,” I said. “You could have asked what I wanted. Instead, you decided what everyone else should see.”

“I thought I was making the evening easier.”

“For whom?”

She lowered her gaze to the flowers in her hands.

My mother began to speak, but I raised one hand slightly. Not to silence her forever. Only to give Emily a chance to answer without someone filling in the space.

“I don’t know,” Emily said at last.

It was a small answer. It wasn’t an apology, but it didn’t blame the venue, the photographers, the guests, or me. For now, I could let it be small.

Preston had moved nearer but hadn’t joined us. He watched with a guarded expression, keeping enough distance to suggest this was a family matter and close enough to hear every word. I wondered whether he was calculating what the story would mean to the people in the room, or whether he was simply waiting for the argument to end. I had no basis for deciding.

“I’m not going to discuss your business tonight,” I said, looking at him. “And I’m not going to make a decision about it because we’re standing in a ballroom.”

“I heard you,” he said.

“I hope so.”

Dana glanced between us.

“Would you like me to move you to the place that was originally prepared in the main room?” she asked me.

The question was offered without a push. I looked toward the family table. It was a clear route away, an open place beside people who had heard my sister explain why she’d wanted me out of sight.

“I’ll decide where I want to sit,” I said. “Not where someone decides I’ll look best.”

“Understood,” Dana replied.

Emily’s bouquet shifted in her hands.

“I didn’t say you looked bad.”

“You said I’d ruin the photos.”

Her eyes shut briefly.

“I said that because I was panicking.”

“About the photos?”

“About what people would think. About what they’d ask. About how I’d explain—” She stopped. “I’m not saying that makes it okay.”

It was the first time she had named her own fear without putting it in the guests’ mouths. Still, there was a difference between explaining a choice and taking responsibility for it. She had started toward one; she hadn’t reached it.

The photographer called Emily’s name from the other side of the room. A few guests turned. No one moved to help her escape the conversation.

“I have to take the pictures,” she said.

“Then take them,” I replied.

She searched my face, perhaps for permission to leave without consequence. I gave her no signal either way. She walked back toward the family table, her train following behind her like a bright, carefully arranged promise.

My mother stayed beside me.

“You shouldn’t have had to ask,” she said.

“No,” I replied. “I shouldn’t.”

“I can tell them what happened.”

“You already told them about the fire. You can tell them the seat was deliberate, because it was. But don’t tell them what I feel.”

She nodded.

“I won’t.”

Dana watched Emily reach the photographer. The guests began speaking again, their voices resuming in cautious waves. The quartet moved into a brighter piece, but the room did not quite return to what it had been. Maybe it never could.

“I can check the original instructions,” Dana said. “I’d like to make sure nothing gets changed while people are moving chairs and getting ready for dinner.”

“Please do,” I said.

She tapped something on her tablet, then paused.

“I should mention that our staff notes the setup requests, including any changes to seating and access. I can preserve those instructions exactly as they were before anyone edits or replaces them.”

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Her hand hovered over the screen.

“Would you like me to save the record now?”

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