Chapter 15

Weeks later, June slept in the crib Ryan had built and repaired, one fist tucked beside her cheek. The nursery smelled faintly of clean cotton and the lavender lotion Melissa rubbed into June’s feet. Beyond the doorway, the house had gone quiet except for the soft creak of the floorboards.
Then June woke.
Melissa reached the nursery first. Ryan followed, still in his socks, his hair flattened on one side from the couch cushion. I stayed by the doorway and watched them take turns: Melissa lifting June, Ryan warming a bottle, Melissa pacing beneath the pale-yellow walls while he rinsed the nipple in the kitchen sink.
No one looked graceful at three in the morning. They looked tired and stubborn and wholly present.
When June finally settled, Ryan rested a hand on the crib rail. His thumb moved over the smooth wood he had sanded himself.
“She’s got your timing,” Melissa whispered to him.
“I thought I had another hour.”
“You did. She changed her mind.”
I almost laughed, but the sound caught in my throat. The mark on June’s back showed when Melissa shifted her against her shoulder—a dark crescent, ordinary and unmistakable. It no longer made the room feel haunted. It belonged to June, as much as her quiet snuffles and the little crease between her brows.
The next afternoon, I came over with the hospital blanket folded over my arm. I had washed it, though it still held the faint smell of hospital soap. I wasn’t sure why I’d brought it until I saw June sleeping against Melissa’s chest and remembered how fiercely I’d wrapped the blanket around her the first time Ryan tried to hand her away.
I set it on the nursery chair instead of wrapping June in it.
Melissa noticed. She didn’t ask me to explain.
“You want to hold her?” she said.
“If you want me to.”
She shifted June carefully into my arms. The baby’s warmth seeped through my shirt. I tucked one corner of the blanket beneath her, and for a moment its old meaning changed. It had been something I clung to when fear filled the hospital room. Now it was simply soft, clean fabric beneath my niece.
Sophie came in carrying a sheet of paper in both hands. She had been drawing at the kitchen table while the grown-ups tried to drink coffee before it went cold.
“I made everybody,” she announced.
The picture showed a yellow house with four stick figures in front and a smaller one in a crib. One figure had long black hair. Beside it, Sophie had written NORA in careful, oversized letters. June’s name was tucked above the crib.
Nora stood in the hallway, one hand resting lightly on the doorframe. She had come for lunch and stayed long enough to help Sophie find a missing red marker. She was still learning how long she wanted to stay.
Sophie held the drawing up to her.
“I put you in,” she said. “Do you like it?”
Nora studied the page. Her mouth pressed into a line, then loosened.
“I do,” she said. “Thank you.”
“I made you a house, too.” Sophie pointed to a little blue roof at the edge of the paper. “What color do you want your house?”
Nora blinked. “You drew me another house?”
“So you can pick the color.” Sophie offered her the markers.
For a moment, Nora didn’t move. Then she chose the green one.
“Green,” she said. “I think.”
Sophie nodded solemnly, as if Nora had given her an important job. She began coloring the small house while Nora sat beside her.
Ryan watched from the doorway. His hands were empty, but he kept rubbing one thumb over the other, the way he did when words had gathered and he didn’t know how to let them out.
“Nora,” he said. “There’s something I want to say. You don’t have to answer.”
She looked up. Sophie kept coloring, but her small shoulders had gone still.
Ryan drew a breath.
“I saw June’s mark and treated her like a warning instead of my daughter. I hurt Melissa, Claire, and you. I can’t undo it, and I’m not asking you to make me feel better about it.”
Nora’s eyes stayed on him. “I heard you.”
“That’s enough.”
“It’s not nothing,” she said. “But it isn’t the same as everything being all right.”
“I know.”
The room held the words without trying to soften them. Ryan didn’t reach for Nora or ask her to come closer. He stood where he was, letting her decide what the distance meant.
Nora looked down at Sophie’s drawing. The green roof was still only half colored.
“I can keep meeting you,” she said. “One honest conversation at a time.”
Ryan nodded. “I’d like that.”
“I can’t promise what I’ll want later.”
“You don’t have to.”
Sophie slid the marker toward Nora. “You can finish your house.”
Nora took it. “Thank you.”
June stirred against my chest. I felt the small flex of her back beneath the blanket and saw the curve of her mark above the collar of her sleeper. It no longer seemed like a message from the past. It was only a mark on a baby who had a mother, a father, and an aunt holding her while she slept.
When Melissa reached for June, I passed her back without hesitation. Melissa settled her daughter against her shoulder, and June gave a tiny sigh.
Sophie finished coloring the roof. She handed the drawing to Ryan, who looked at Nora before asking where to put it.
“By the nursery door?” he said. “If that’s okay.”
Nora glanced at the yellow house Sophie had drawn, then at the doorway.
“Yes,” she said. “That’s okay.”
Ryan found a strip of tape. Together, he and Sophie fixed the drawing beside the nursery door, not over June’s name or Nora’s. There was room on the wall beside it, a clean patch of pale yellow left empty.
Nora noticed it.
“For the next one?” Sophie asked.
May you like
Nora considered, then smiled—not a promise, but a beginning she had chosen.
“For the next one,” she said.