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Chapter 8

The next morning, I called the investigator before Emma woke up.

I stood at the kitchen counter with my phone pressed to my ear, watching the pale light creep across the window. My sister had stayed the night. From the living room came the quiet rustle of a blanket as she shifted on the couch.

“I want to be clear about Vanessa’s request,” I said. “I’m not agreeing to a meeting involving Emma.”

“You don’t have to decide anything on the spot,” the investigator replied. “And no meeting has been arranged.”

“Good. I don’t want Emma surprised or placed in front of Vanessa.”

“I understand. If Vanessa contacts you, preserve the message. Don’t debate the recordings or ask Emma to explain anything. Keep your boundary clear, and let me know.”

I looked toward the hallway. The laundry-room door was shut. I had checked the bolt the night before, then checked it again after Emma fell asleep. I knew the bolt no longer mattered. Still, seeing the door closed made my chest tighten.

“I will,” I said.

After the call, I saved the investigator’s number at the top of my recent contacts. It was a small, practical thing. I needed practical things. They gave my hands somewhere to go while my mind kept racing ahead.

Emma woke soon after, Bunny tucked beneath one arm. She shuffled into the kitchen in her pajamas, her hair sticking up on one side.

“Is Auntie here?”

“She is. She’s resting on the couch.”

Emma climbed into her chair. I poured cereal into her bowl and set the carton of milk beside it.

“Are you staying today?” she asked.

“I am.”

She nodded, as if she were making a note of it, then looked down at Bunny.

My sister joined us a few minutes later. She didn’t ask Emma how she was feeling or whether she had been scared in the night. She just asked if Bunny needed a place at the table. Emma put the rabbit in the chair beside her.

We spent the morning doing ordinary things. My sister read Emma a picture book while I answered work messages. Emma colored a purple dog and a yellow house. When she asked me to draw a sun, I made it too large, and she laughed.

The laugh didn’t erase anything. I knew that. But it was a sound she had chosen to make, and no one demanded that she keep making it.

The doorbell rang just after lunch.

My sister looked up from the kitchen table. I felt my whole body go still.

Emma was on the living-room rug, arranging crayons by color. She glanced toward the hall.

“Who’s that?”

“I’ll check,” I said. “You can stay here with Auntie.”

I didn’t tell her not to worry. I didn’t want her to think she had to manage my reaction. My sister moved to sit beside her and asked whether the purple crayon belonged with the blue ones or the red ones.

I went to the front window and looked through the narrow gap in the curtains.

Vanessa stood on the porch.

For half a second, the person I saw was the woman who had once carried groceries into the house while Emma slept against my shoulder. Then I remembered the bolt on the laundry-room door. The scratches low on the wood. The recordings with their dates intact.

I kept the door locked and opened it only as far as the chain allowed.

Vanessa’s gaze moved past me, searching the hallway.

“Is Emma here?”

“She’s with my sister. You need to leave.”

“I just want to talk.”

“Not here. Not with Emma in the house.”

Her expression tightened. She glanced at the gap in the door, then back at me.

“I told the investigator I wanted a meeting. I thought you’d at least listen to me before deciding I’m some kind of monster.”

“I’m not discussing that with you.”

“You’re letting those recordings tell you what kind of person I am.”

“I told you to communicate through the investigator.”

“I’m her stepmother, Daniel. I was part of her life. You can’t just erase that.”

The words landed where she meant them to. I felt the old reflex to explain, to soften, to find a sentence that might make the moment less painful for everyone.

But the door was between us for a reason.

“I’m not arranging a meeting with Emma,” I said. “You need to go.”

Vanessa’s mouth opened, then closed. She looked over my shoulder again.

“I didn’t come to upset her.”

“Then leave.”

From the living room, I heard Emma ask my sister a question about the crayons. My sister answered in a light, steady voice. I didn’t look back. I didn’t want Vanessa to see where Emma was, and I didn’t want Emma to see me standing in the doorway with Vanessa on the other side.

“You’re making this worse,” Vanessa said.

“I’m ending this conversation. Please leave now.”

She stared at me for a beat. I couldn’t tell whether she was angry, afraid, or simply unwilling to accept that I would not give her the response she wanted. I didn’t need to know. I didn’t need to win an argument on the porch.

I needed to keep my daughter out of it.

Vanessa took one step back.

“Fine,” she said. “I’ll speak to the investigator.”

“That’s the right person to contact.”

She turned and walked down the path. I waited until she reached the sidewalk, then closed the door and locked it.

For a moment, my hand stayed on the knob.

My sister appeared at the edge of the hall, keeping Emma out of view.

“She’s gone?” she whispered.

“Yes.”

“Did Emma see her?”

“No.”

My sister nodded. She didn’t tell me I had handled it well. She didn’t need to. I was not looking for a reward. I was trying to do the thing I should have done sooner: hold the boundary even when it hurt.

I called the investigator and reported that Vanessa had come to the house after I had asked her not to. I gave the time and kept to what I knew. The investigator asked whether Vanessa had spoken with Emma.

“No.”

“Did Emma see her?”

“No. My sister kept her in the living room.”

“Thank you. I’ll document the contact. Keep preserving any communication, and don’t engage further if she returns. Let me know.”

When the call ended, I took a screenshot of the call log and saved it with Vanessa’s earlier messages. I didn’t send anyone the recordings. I didn’t write down guesses about what Vanessa had meant or why she had come. I recorded what happened, then put my phone away.

My sister had turned the crayons into a game. Emma was choosing one for each of them.

“Daddy, you need a color,” she said.

“What should I have?”

She studied me, then handed me the green one.

“Green,” she said. “Because it’s a tree color.”

I sat on the rug beside them.

For a while, we drew. Emma made a house with a purple roof and three windows. My sister added a tree. I drew a crooked line of grass beneath it.

The doorbell did not ring again.

Later, when the afternoon began to darken, my sister helped Emma carry her picture to the refrigerator. I walked her there, too, making sure I stayed in the room without crowding her. The house smelled like crayons and the soup warming on the stove. For a few minutes, it felt like a home instead of a place where everyone was listening for the next interruption.

Then Emma heard the front door close. She went still, her fingers tightening around Bunny’s paw.

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She looked at me.

“Daddy,” she asked, “can Vanessa come back inside?”

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