Chapter 12: The Place Camille Rested

Adrien looked at the girls’ faces, then answered the question they had both asked.
“Yes. We can go see her.”
Mila’s grip on the blanket loosened a little. Nora sat up, as if she was afraid he might change his mind if she waited.
“Today?” Nora asked.
“If you want to. We can take our time, and we can come home whenever either of you wants.”
He didn’t know where Camille was buried. He could have searched through records or asked someone from his office, but there was one person the girls trusted who might know without turning the question into a task.
He called Elise the next morning.
She sounded tired but pleased when she heard their voices. Nora explained what they wanted. Mila stayed close to the phone, listening.
“I can tell you where to go,” Elise said. “I’m sorry I can’t come with you today. My doctors still want me to rest.”
“That’s all right,” Adrien said. “We’ll call you when we get there, if that’s okay.”
“I’d like that.”
Elise gave him the name of the cemetery and directions to the section where Camille’s grave was. She reminded the girls they could leave flowers if they wanted, or simply sit for a while.
When the call ended, Adrien found a small vase in the kitchen and asked if they wanted to bring anything.
“Flowers,” Nora said.
Mila glanced at the clay piece in her hand.
“Can we bring these, too?”
“Of course,” Adrien said. “You can decide whether to hold on to them or set them down.”
He meant it. But when he saw how carefully Mila wrapped her token in a soft cloth, he understood that choosing what to do with it might feel like choosing something much larger.
The cemetery was quiet beneath a pale morning sky. Adrien parked near the entrance, and the girls stepped out beside him. Nora carried the flowers. Mila held the cloth-wrapped clay token against her chest.
They walked slowly, following the directions Elise had given them. Adrien stayed between the girls, close enough that either could take his hand. For a while, neither did.
When they found Camille’s grave, Nora stopped first.
The headstone was simple. Camille’s name and dates were cut into the stone. Adrien stared at them, feeling the old shock of seeing her life reduced to a beginning and an ending. He had stood beside this grave before, but never with two little girls who had inherited Camille’s eyes and the way she went quiet when something hurt.
Nora set the flowers down.
“Is this where she is?” she asked.
“Yes,” Adrien said.
Mila looked at the ground, then at the stone.
“Can she hear us?”
Adrien swallowed. He couldn’t give her certainty just to make the moment easier.
“I don’t know,” he said. “People believe different things. But we can talk to her if we want to.”
Nora nodded as if that was enough. She crouched to straighten the flowers, then leaned close to the stone.
“Hi, Mom,” she whispered.
Mila remained beside Adrien, her token held in both hands.
He didn’t tell her to go closer. He didn’t tell her what Camille would have wanted. He let her decide.
After a moment, she stepped forward and knelt. She set the wrapped token beside the flowers.
Then she froze.
Her hands hovered over the cloth. Her eyes widened, and her breath caught.
“No,” she whispered. “I can’t leave it.”
Adrien crouched beside her.
“You don’t have to.”
Mila’s fingers trembled as she reached for the token, then pulled back.
“What if it was the only message Mom gave us?” she said. “What if she wanted us to leave it here?”
Adrien felt the question press against an old, familiar ache: the fear that one wrong choice could make a person lost for good.
He kept his voice gentle.
“Your mom gave you the token because it mattered. But I don’t think her love is trapped inside it. You can take it with you. You can leave it here. Either way, you’re not giving her away.”
Mila searched his face, looking for the part of the answer he might be hiding.
“I won’t touch it unless you want me to,” he added.
She unwrapped it herself. The small marks pressed into the clay caught the light, ordinary and familiar. They were Camille’s symbols, made by her hands. They didn’t unlock anything or ask the girls to prove anything. They were simply something she had made and given them.
Mila picked up the piece and closed her fingers around it.
“I want to keep it,” she said.
“Then keep it.”
She tucked it carefully into her pocket. Her shoulders lowered, though she didn’t move away from the grave.
Nora looked at the token in Mila’s hand.
“Mom made those marks?”
“That’s what I remember,” Adrien said. “She used to press little shapes into things when she was thinking.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know if she had a reason every time. Sometimes people make things because their hands want to do something while their minds are busy.”
Nora touched the edge of the headstone.
“Did she do it when she was thinking about us?”
Adrien couldn’t know. He had missed years of their lives, and no answer could make that absence smaller.
“I don’t know,” he said. “I wish I could tell you.”
Nora’s mouth tightened, but she nodded. The honesty didn’t fix the question. It did let the question stay hers.
Adrien lowered himself to the ground beside them. The grass was cool beneath his trousers. He hadn’t planned to sit, but standing over the girls had begun to feel like a distance he didn’t want between them.
“I remember your mom laughing in the kitchen,” he said. “She’d open the window, even when I told her it was cold.”
Nora smiled a little.
“She wanted the birds to hear the house,” Mila said.
Adrien looked at her. “That’s right. She said the house needed to hear the birds.”
For a while, they shared small memories. Nora told him Camille sang while she folded laundry, though she never remembered all the words. Mila said her mother used to warm her hands around a mug when she was tired. Adrien listened, learning details that belonged to the girls’ years with Camille—the years he hadn’t been there to see.
When Nora ran out of things to say, she rested her hand beside the flowers.
“I miss her,” she said.
“I do, too,” Adrien answered.
Mila leaned her shoulder against his arm. He stayed still, letting her choose how long to rest there.
None of them tried to make the sadness disappear. They sat together until the breeze shifted the flower stems and Nora asked if they could go home. Adrien said yes. Before they left, each girl said goodbye in her own way. Nora whispered it. Mila pressed her palm to the stone, then put her hand back in her pocket around the token.
In the car, Adrien called Elise so the girls could tell her how it went. Nora described the flowers. Mila said she had kept the clay piece.
“I’m glad you brought it back with you,” Elise said. “It was yours to choose.”
Mila stared at the token in her lap. “Did Mom make the symbols for us?”
“She made them with love,” Elise replied. “That’s what matters.”
The girls grew quiet. Adrien watched the road, giving them room to listen.
Then Nora asked, “Is that the letter you have? The one Mom wrote to us?”
There was a pause on the line.
“Yes,” Elise said. “I’ve kept it safe. I’ll bring it when I’m able, and you can decide whether you want to read it.”
“What does it say?” Mila asked.
May you like
Elise took a breath.
“Camille’s letter to you contains the words she could never say aloud.”