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Chapter 9: A Name on Paper

Mila’s fist closed around the clay token.

Adrien felt the movement like a door shutting. He wanted to tell her the test was only a formality, that nothing on paper could change how he felt. But he didn’t know what the test would say, and he wouldn’t offer a promise he couldn’t explain.

Ms. Bennett leaned forward, keeping her voice calm.

“Confirming parentage is one part of understanding the girls’ situation. It isn’t a test they can pass or fail, and it won’t decide whether they deserve care.”

Mila looked down at her fist.

“What if the paper says he isn’t our dad?”

Nora’s shoulder pressed more tightly against hers.

“Then we’ll still make sure you’re safe and cared for,” Ms. Bennett said. “The adults will work out what comes next. No one is going to blame you for a result.”

Adrien stayed quiet. The answer was honest, but it wasn’t enough to make the fear vanish. He could see that in the way Mila held the token—as if the little piece of clay were the only thing in the room she could trust.

Ms. Bennett turned to him.

“If you’re willing, I can coordinate an appropriate test through a qualified provider. We’ll make sure the necessary permissions are in place, explain each step to the girls, and give them time to ask questions.”

“I’m willing,” Adrien said. “But I don’t want them to feel forced.”

“Then we’ll take this one step at a time,” she replied. “And you should be clear with them: this can confirm a biological relationship. It won’t answer every question about what happens next.”

Adrien nodded. “I understand.”

Nora studied him.

“Are you going to call us your daughters if the test says yes?”

The question caught him unprepared. He looked at the girls, not Ms. Bennett.

“I won’t decide what to call our relationship for you,” he said. “If that word feels right to you someday, you can use it. If it doesn’t, you don’t have to.”

Nora glanced at Mila.

“What do you want to call us?”

Adrien’s throat tightened. He could have said the word he’d already been thinking in the dark, the word that seemed to have been waiting for him since the girls arrived at his door. But wanting it did not mean he had the right to put it on them.

“I want to know you,” he said. “Whatever word we use, I want to be here.”

Mila’s eyes lifted briefly to his, then dropped to the token again.

Ms. Bennett wrote something in her notebook. She explained that she would speak with the provider and check what permissions were needed. She would also keep working on a safe plan for the girls while the parentage question was being answered. There would be no final decision that afternoon.

Adrien told the girls what he knew. He told them what he didn’t. He did not tell them the test would change nothing, because in practical ways it might change a great deal. He told them only that it was an adult responsibility, and he would explain what happened as soon as he could.

Before leaving, Ms. Bennett arranged to call Elise. She put the phone on speaker only after asking the girls if they wanted to hear her.

They both nodded.

Elise’s voice came through softly, roughened by tiredness.

“Hi, my loves.”

Nora leaned toward the phone.

“Ms. Bennett says they might do a test.”

“I know,” Elise said. “She told me. They’re going to explain everything first, and no one will make you do anything without making sure the adults have permission.”

“Are you coming home soon?” Mila asked.

A pause followed.

“I don’t know yet, sweetheart. I’m still getting better. But I’ll call you again, and I’ll visit when the doctors say I can.”

Mila squeezed the clay.

“Okay.”

Elise asked to speak with Adrien. He stepped away from the couch but stayed where the girls could see him.

“Thank you for staying with them,” Elise said.

“I’m trying to do what’s right.”

“That matters. But they’ll need more than one good day.”

“I know.”

“Do you?”

The question wasn’t unkind. It was simply too important to soften.

Adrien looked toward the girls. Nora was whispering something to Mila, and Mila was listening without letting go of the token.

“No,” he admitted. “Not yet. But I’m willing to learn what they need, not just what I think I can give.”

Elise was quiet for a moment.

“Then keep showing up.”

“I will.”

After the call, Ms. Bennett left with a promise to contact them as soon as the testing arrangements were clear. The house settled into a strained quiet. Adrien made lunch, and the girls ate at the kitchen table. He answered their questions about what a cheek swab felt like and whether it hurt. He didn’t pretend to know the exact day the results would arrive.

Over the next few days, he did what he had told them he would do. He stayed nearby without hovering. He warned them before leaving a room. When he needed to take a call, he told them how long he expected to be gone and came back when he said he would. He learned that Nora liked her toast cut into triangles and Mila wanted to see what was in a package before anyone opened it.

Small facts. Ordinary facts.

They didn’t make up for six years. But they gave him something real to build on.

When Ms. Bennett called with an appointment, she explained the process again. The girls were quiet during the ride to the testing center. Adrien sat beside them in the waiting room, leaving a little space between their chairs and his.

A staff member showed them the sealed swabs and explained how they would gently brush the inside of each person’s cheek. Ms. Bennett made sure the required permissions had been handled. The girls were given time to ask questions and watch the staff prepare.

“It’s not a shot?” Nora asked.

“No,” the staff member said. “No needles. Just a soft swab.”

“Will it take my clay?” Mila asked.

“No,” Adrien said before the staff member could answer. “Your token stays with you.”

Mila looked at him as if checking whether he meant it. Then she tucked the clay into the pocket of her dress and held still for the swab.

Adrien gave his sample after the girls. The staff sealed each one, checked the labels, and recorded the collection. Ms. Bennett explained that the report would be shared with the appropriate people and that they would talk through the result together.

The girls came home with him that evening. No placement decision had been made. Ms. Bennett continued checking in, and Elise called when she could. The waiting stretched through the house like another person nobody had invited.

When the report came, Ms. Bennett brought it herself.

The three of them sat at the kitchen table. Mila had placed her clay token beside her plate but kept one hand close to it. Nora sat with her knees tucked beneath her chair.

Ms. Bennett set the paper down, turned it so Adrien could read, and waited.

He looked at the printed names. At the formal language. At the result, clear and unambiguous.

The test confirmed that he was Mila and Nora’s biological father.

For a moment, the room blurred. Adrien gripped the edge of the table, not to steady himself but to remain where he was. The answer seemed to fill every empty space inside him and expose all of them at once.

He looked up.

“The test confirms I’m your biological father,” he said. “That’s what the paper says.”

Nora searched his face.

“So it’s true?”

“Yes.”

Mila didn’t move. Her fingers rested beside the clay.

Adrien took a slow breath.

“You don’t have to call me Dad. And you don’t have to feel any certain way about this. I wanted the truth, but I know a test can’t make you trust me.”

Nora’s voice was small.

“Why didn’t you look for us?”

There it was. Not the question he’d been bracing for, but the one that mattered.

“I didn’t know you existed,” he said. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there. I can’t tell you I would have made every choice right if I’d known. I don’t know what I would have done then. But I wish I’d known you.”

“Were you mad at Mom?” Nora asked.

“I was hurt when your mother and I were apart. I was grieving her after she died. But none of that is your fault, and you don’t have to make it better for me.”

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Mila studied the report. Then she looked at him, her expression guarded in a way no six-year-old should have had to learn.

“Would you still want us if the test had said no?” she asked.

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